Seven's November

第二次住在广州，终于一得闲逛逛珠江边。我为自己做了个让工作少许不紧张的决定，却还带着小小的惊恐与犹豫。
有些事，为了自己，该放下手了，没有解释，没有next steps，于是也不会有opportunity和challenge，对我来说，或者let it be，是最好的选择。心里面很是空洞，但我觉得周末的一个拥抱便可以把这种空洞填满了吧。
其实问题的关键是我还可不可以一个人生活，一个人生活并非不是更美好的事，只是我没有勇气去做了。所以我选择麻木，麻木地放开手，就会发现，这些真是无足轻重的小事，我真的该把它们忘掉。

Dear, I am missing u so much. I always have the picture in my mind that we havd so much happiness together. Last Halloween, we dressed up like chinese ghost. What's the name of the bar in Clark Quay, what's the name of the drink? Is it Singapore Sling? I am fine here.Just never got satisfied. Never satisfied.
I am thinking of quit. But i don't have the courage to change. Last night we talk, I dreamed of the new life that never would come. I know it is just dream.
Let me leave....